2012.

2012 is finally here. I am so happy that 2011 is over. Hopefully this year is better. I'm going to try to be a better person to myself this year. I know that sounds strange, but I'm not going to have a fake smile always on my face. My true feelings are coming out. I'm not changing for anyone else, they don't care anyway. I'm changing for myself.

1. As mentioned above, I'm not going to act like everything's fine anymore. I'm sick of that fake smile that I have to put on every day. I'm tired of pretending. It's not helping me at all. I'm tired of being silent, smiling like everything's ok. But inside, I'm fighting my own problems.

2. I'm sick of people telling me what to do, and that's not going to happen anymore. Everyone thinks that they can push me around. "Go do this, give me this." No. I'm not an animal. Go do it yourself. Maybe it would help you.

3. I'm going to sound like a selfish b-word on this one, but I have every right to. I'm not going to deal with people who don't care at all about me. I'm sick of associating with idiots who don't give a crap about my feelings. I try to help whoever needs help. All I'm asking is for at least some advice or something. Stop putting your nose so far up your butt and actually do something for someone else. If you are reading this and you know me, this probably doesn't apply to you so don't worry. But there are a few people that this is aimed towards. This issue happened the whole year of 2011. It's not going to happen anymore. I'd rather be a loner than someone who has to deal with people who obviously don't want me around.

Happy New Year.