Welcoming 2016

(note to self: you wrote an incredibly long, in-depth version of this on your private tumblr blog because you're a doofus who had nothing better to do)

What a year. It wasn't great but it wasn't terrible. I've had better years but at the same time, I've had way worse. There were definitely some terrifying things that happened this year. Some events (WWE being cancelled) didn't go my way. Tears were shed. Things I never even thought of ended up happening. It was a year of surprises, all of which turned out for the better in their own unique ways, even though it may not have seemed like it at the time.

I successfully finished my first year of college and started my second year. I've been on the dean's list all of this year, something I'm shocked but so proud about. I'm achieving my dreams. It still doesn't feel real to me sometimes. I'll be sitting in class and all of the sudden I'll look around and realize that I'm here. I'm at the place I've wanted to be in since I was probably ten, maybe younger. It's crazy to think about.

With the whirlwind this year has been, I can honestly say I'm ready for 2016. I already have things to look forward to, and it seems like it's going to be a really great year. I'm going to try to make it the best. I'm seeing Fall Out Boy in 74 days; it already sounds like the best year ever. I also got a Ninja Coffee Bar for Christmas which is going to be of very good use in 2016, as my resolution is to drink more coffee. You can never have enough coffee. I have a problem.

I made it through 2015 and now I'm ready to conquer 2016.

In the words of CM Punk (whom I miss on my television set every Monday and Thursday night), it's clobberin' time!

March 6th.

It's been four years since you've passed.

I was a Freshman in high school, and now I'm a Freshman in college.

Everyone says we shouldn't dwell on the past, but it's so hard not to when I miss you so much. As the years go by, I find myself growing stronger. This day will always be hard for me though, which is why I'm sitting here bawling my eyes out right now. You were the absolute best grandpa anyone could ever have. I feel as if you have been there and have guided me to where I'm at today. I'm so grateful for that. When I had that breakdown last year and had no clue what to do with my life and prayed to you to help guide me, you did. I feel like you would be proud of me if you were still here. I hope I'm making you proud. I know you always wanted to see me go to college. I'm trying.

I feel your presence everyday helping me throughout life. You've helped me so so so much. Thank you.

I remember one of our last conversations; it's something that will forever be in my memory. You talked about how next time you see me, I'd want to do calculus instead of bake cookies. You were always the funniest and knew how to make me smile. I never did get a chance to see you after that, but I hope one day we'll be together again baking cookies. Then we can decorate them really ugly and mix all the colors of frosting together to make the worst shade of gray possible. "Goop", as you'd call it. It was terrible looking, but it was beautiful as long as you made it. I hope you're up in heaven eating a lot of "goop"-frosted cookies.

I miss you a lot. I love you even more.