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Thursday, December 31, 2015

Welcoming 2016

(note to self: you wrote an incredibly long, in-depth version of this on your private tumblr blog because you're a doofus who had nothing better to do)

What a year. It wasn't great but it wasn't terrible. I've had better years but at the same time, I've had way worse. There were definitely some terrifying things that happened this year. Some events (WWE being cancelled) didn't go my way. Tears were shed. Things I never even thought of ended up happening. It was a year of surprises, all of which turned out for the better in their own unique ways, even though it may not have seemed like it at the time.

I successfully finished my first year of college and started my second year. I've been on the dean's list all of this year, something I'm shocked but so proud about. I'm achieving my dreams. It still doesn't feel real to me sometimes. I'll be sitting in class and all of the sudden I'll look around and realize that I'm here. I'm at the place I've wanted to be in since I was probably ten, maybe younger. It's crazy to think about.

With the whirlwind this year has been, I can honestly say I'm ready for 2016. I already have things to look forward to, and it seems like it's going to be a really great year. I'm going to try to make it the best. I'm seeing Fall Out Boy in 74 days; it already sounds like the best year ever. I also got a Ninja Coffee Bar for Christmas which is going to be of very good use in 2016, as my resolution is to drink more coffee. You can never have enough coffee. I have a problem.

I made it through 2015 and now I'm ready to conquer 2016.

In the words of CM Punk (whom I miss on my television set every Monday and Thursday night), it's clobberin' time!

Friday, March 6, 2015

March 6th.

It's been four years since you've passed.

I was a Freshman in high school, and now I'm a Freshman in college.

Everyone says we shouldn't dwell on the past, but it's so hard not to when I miss you so much. As the years go by, I find myself growing stronger. This day will always be hard for me though, which is why I'm sitting here bawling my eyes out right now. You were the absolute best grandpa anyone could ever have. I feel as if you have been there and have guided me to where I'm at today. I'm so grateful for that. When I had that breakdown last year and had no clue what to do with my life and prayed to you to help guide me, you did. I feel like you would be proud of me if you were still here. I hope I'm making you proud. I know you always wanted to see me go to college. I'm trying.

I feel your presence everyday helping me throughout life. You've helped me so so so much. Thank you.

I remember one of our last conversations; it's something that will forever be in my memory. You talked about how next time you see me, I'd want to do calculus instead of bake cookies. You were always the funniest and knew how to make me smile. I never did get a chance to see you after that, but I hope one day we'll be together again baking cookies. Then we can decorate them really ugly and mix all the colors of frosting together to make the worst shade of gray possible. "Goop", as you'd call it. It was terrible looking, but it was beautiful as long as you made it. I hope you're up in heaven eating a lot of "goop"-frosted cookies.

I miss you a lot. I love you even more.

Sunday, December 28, 2014

Looking back on 2014.

It's been a crazy but surprisingly good year. It's amazing how much can get accomplished in 365 days. 2014 has been the biggest year of my life yet. Graduating from high school, starting college at the University I've dreamed of attending since I was little, just everything about this year blows my mind. Getting to spend an entire summer vacation at home playing video games was also a huge achievement (lol).

Also, I went to a WWE Smackdown taping exactly one week ago and it was the third best day of my life. I had a blast. Nothing like third row on the television side (I saw myself on TV a lot, even dancing which was incredibly embarrassing, oops).

It's been such an amazing year. I can't even wrap my head around half of it.

I found the following questions on tumblr about the year and decided to answer them here.

1: What did you do in 2014 that you’d never done before?: Graudate high school and start college!
2: Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? Kind of, and probably not.
3: Did anyone close to you give birth? Nope.
4: Did anyone close to you die? No, thank God.
5: What countries did you visit? Just right here in the USA, hahaha.
6: What would you like to have in 2015 that you lacked in 2014? Even more accomplishments. Idk, I accomplished a lot in 2014 so that's going to be hard to beat.
7: What dates from 2014 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? The entire summer, May 20th (graduation), August 25th (first day of college), and December 21st (wrestling).
8: What was your biggest achievement of the year? Graduating high school and getting paid to go to my dream college.
9: What was your biggest failure? I can't think of anything.
10: Did you suffer illness or injury? I was probably sick a few times, but nothing too serious.
11: What was the best thing you bought? A PS4 and wrestling tickets.
12: Whose behaviour merited celebration? Mine.
13: Whose behaviour made you appalled? Stupid people.
14: Where did most of your money go? The bank. Just like Seth Rollins, I got that money in the bank. (Please know that was sarcasm and I am very tired).
15: What did you get really, really, really excited about? WRESTLING!
16: What song will always remind you of 2014? I have no idea.
17: Compared to this time last year, are you: (a) happier or sadder? (b) thinner or fatter? (c) richer or poorer? Happier, possibly thinner, and richer.
18: What do you wish you’d done more of? Smile.
19: What do you wish you’d done less of? Cry.
20: How did you spend Christmas? At my grandma's nursing home for lunch, the rest was spent at home.
21: Did you fall in love in 2014? Not really???
22: What was your favourite TV program? Wrestling and Breaking Bad.
23: Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? Definitely.
24: What was the best book you read? I never read so I'll go with an Abnormal Psych book I bought.
25: What was your greatest musical discovery? This is going to sound insane, but Taylor Swift's 1989 album. I can't stand her and her previous music, but that shit is the bomb.
26: What did you want and get? Wrestling tickets, PS4, next-gen GTA V.
27: What did you want and not get? Nothing comes to mind.
28: What was your favourite film of this year? I never watch movies. The only one I think I even watched this entire year was the second Sharknado, hahahaha.
29: What one thing made your year immeasurably more satisfying? I am done with shitty high school forever and college is a million times better than I thought.
30: How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2014? Lots of black shirts. Oh and my lovely moccasin shoes that are ripped because I wear them too much.
31: What kept you sane? Running people over on the sidewalks of GTA V. I'm not lying.
32: Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Steven Ogg and my newly discovered love for Seth Rollins. Oh, and Aaron Paul is pretty freaking adorable too.
33: What political issue stirred you the most? Literally EVERYTHING. I hate politics and all the hating bullshit that's going on in the world.
34: Who did you miss? My grandpa and dog, both of which passed away in 2011.
35: Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2014. Working hard truly does pay off.
36: Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. Ahhhh, I can't think of anything. I'll come up with something. How about "YEAH YEAH YEAH, THIS WAS AN AWESOME YEAR AND I GOT THROUGH IT!" That's some great lyrics right there.

Weeeeeeee.

2014 has been nice, and it's definitely been Clobberin' time. Now I'm ready to conquer 2015.

Friday, August 15, 2014

They See Me Rollin', They Hatinnnnnn

Wowowowow.
It's been like twenty years since I've written in this.

So what's been going on?
I finally got my driving permit (yeah, I'm freaking 18 years old and just got my permit, what a loser lol but technically it's not my fault) so yep.
I got a car too (hence the name of this blog post hahaha).
What else. Hmm.

I start college in a week and a half and I'm not going to talk about that because I'm majorly freaked out and have super bad anxiety about it so nope. Not going to even think about it.

People piss me off. That's nothing new though. People also suck really badly. That's also nothing new.

I have a major crush on a video game character. Trevor Philips is mine everyone, so back off (hahaha). His voice actor is also a majooooor cutie. (I know there's a -343% chance of this happening, but Steven Ogg if you are reading this just know I freaking love you, you amazing man.)
All I've done this summer is play GTA V almost every day and I don't regret it one bit.
It's actually been a great time.

Fuck everyone pretty much.
Yep.
That's it.




Thursday, March 6, 2014

A Letter to Grandpa.

Three years ago today. Three long years that you've been gone.
I sit here, typing this with tears streaming down my face. I miss you so much. Words can't even describe how much.
You weren't my blood grandpa, but you were the closest thing to a real grandpa.
I'll never forget one of our last phone conversations when you joked that the next time you came to visit, you would have to bring a Calculus book because I'd probably be grown up and would rather do Calculus problems than bake cookies with you.
Truth is, I'd give anything to be able to bake one last batch of cookies with you.
I miss the cookies. I miss us decorating them as ugly as possible but you would always say mine were beautiful. I miss you playing that joke on me where you'd pull a quarter out of my ear and I'd believe it every single time.
I've tried to stay strong today but I just can't.
These last three years without you have been the hardest years of my life. I know you're with me though; you'll forever be in my heart. "Forever and a day", as you would say.

I miss you so much.
Whenever I'd tell you that I loved you, you would tell me that you loved me more.

Grandpa, I love you more.

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Goodbye 2013, Hello 2014!

What can I say about 2013? There's a lot of adjectives I could use to describe this year.
It's actually been a pretty good year, definitely one of the best if not the best year of my life so far.
But then again, 2012 was pretty amazing haha.

Seriously though, I'm a bit sad this year is (almost) over. It was a good year. I achieved a huge dream of mine by seeing BTR live; that was even the best day of my life. That's probably why I'm the most sad to see 2013 go because every time I look back, I see that amazing Big Time Rush concert. Plus 2014 is going to be a HUGE year. End of high school, possibly starting college. I'm freaked out just thinking about it. I'm trying not to be so scared of 2014. My viewpoint of it is really bipolar though, one day I'm freaking out crying about it, and the next I'm like "oh fuck it, bring it on". It's just going to be a year of changes I guess.

That being said, 2013 was freaking amazing. Hopefully 2014 will be just as or even more awesome.

2014= Clobberin' time.
Yes that was a CM Punk reference.
What else would you expect from a psychotic fangirl?

Bring it on 2014.

Friday, December 13, 2013

ACT's.

Tomorrow is my second time taking the ACT.
I'm reaaaally freaking out because most of the questions that are on the test are things that I haven't even looked at in two years or more. I haven't had an actual math class for two years. I can't remember all the equations and formulas because I don't use them in everyday life. I haven't had an actual science class since 9th grade, I mean I've had Field Bio in 10th grade and Food Science last year, but those aren't ACTUAL science classes. Those aren't the physics, chemistry, and biology questions that are typically on the ACT. Actually I've never even taken chemistry or physics. I'm screwed.

The only parts that are going to give me hope are the English and Reading parts, because last year I did really good on them both. But that's not going to make up for my extreme failure in the math and science departments.

Ahh.

Plus what really sucks is having to take this on a Saturday. Seriously, who wants to wake up at like 6:30 in the morning on a Saturday to go to their high school to take a 4+ hour test? Not my idea of a good weekend.

I'm almost positive that I'm not going to do as good as I did last year, because I had more information in my head last year because I semi-remembered Algebra II from the year before. Now it's all gone.

Please send help.

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

A really crazy "ARTPOP" album review by me.

I know I haven't written in this foreveeeer but here's this because I don't know where else to post this with other people thinking I'm insane.

Before I say anything though: BUY ARTPOP BY GAGA. ITS THE BEST ALBUM EVER CREATED. Your mind will melt into a pile of sparkle lava.

Now for my insanely terrible review, keep in mind that I wrote my exact thoughts down as I was listening to the music for the first time.


Aura- this intro is giving me the worst chills. looooove the vocal effects wow. this is scary but amazing. *evil laughter*. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. my brain is melting. DANG. it sounds like pop vomited but in the best way. woo yeah i'm feeling this. OMG WHAT DID I JUST LISTEN TO

Venus- sure why not let's go to a different planet because earth is starting to go downhill with all these dumb people OH THOSE FREAKING CHORUSES GAGA SLAYS *snaps my fingers violently* TAKE ME TO YO PLANETTTT HOLY CARP THAT FRAEKARING FGAGA SLAGYY THAT WOMAN JUST OAWEHR YES GAGA THIS IS LOVE BECAUSE IM OBSESSED WITH YOUR BEAUTIFUL SONGWRITING. woo bridge here we go oh my gosh MY EARS ARE EXPLODING THIS IS FREAKING AMAZING

G.U.Y.- omg this is definitely a great follow up song to venus, the beginning is like space travel. THAT FREAKING BEAT AND SYNTHS IM DYING woah what gaga you're confusing me i love the background music though it's freaking bosslike. ok this one isn't my favorite but it's alright, it's just too repetitive in the chorus for me GAGA WHAT ARE YOU SCREAMING

*insert inappropriate word here* Dreams- it's obvious this one's going to be extremely dirty thank gosh they blurred that word out i don't even know my thoughts are all over but i can barely even hear this because my parents won't shut up. it does have a good funky beat OH THAT SPOKEN PART OF THE BRIDGE GAGA I JUST LOVE YOU

Jewels N Drugs- wtf gaga rappers wait? woah this is gangster yo ARE YOU TURNING HOOD GAGA. what's this guy spelling GAGA TURNING HOMIE WOAH WELL THIS ISNT EXPECTED but then again this is gaga lol "i think you should shut up and sit down" same here. this just doesn't feel like it should be on ARTPOP so far, like it doesn't fit in THAT BRIDGE JUST TURNED STRAIGHT UP GANGSTER MY EYES ARE GIANT NOW THIS GUYS GOING TO HAVE A HEART ATTACK IF HE RAPS ANY FASTER

Manicure- well this sounds extremely sassy. that voice just omg slaying the world. it's catchy. YES I CAN FEEL IT GAGA. dang this girl went total qui qui mode in this song but i love sassy gaga so it's ok. THE END OF THIS IS FREAKING AMAZING *headbangs*

Do What You Want- really catchy background music. Gaga's voice is so angelic like omg. i don't like the meaning behind this and some of the lyrics but it's catchy. it's actually surprisingly calm compared to the rest of the album. whoever this dude is that's featured on this has a super calming voice. lol ok that part was definitely my favorite part. i love the tiny bit when gaga and the dude sing together, their voices blend nicely.

ARTPOP- YES THIS INTRO IS GIVING ME CHILLS. LITERALLY IM FREAKING SHIVERING NOW. this is so different but in the best way. *sings* WE COULD, WE COULD, BELONG TOGETHER ARTPOP! she was right when she said to listen to this with headphones, it's amazing. her voice is just so freaking calming right now idk. artpoppppp could mean anythingggg. that's interesting. free my mind artpop, you make my heart stop. PERFECT ENDING.

Swine- YES IVE BEEN WAITING 90 YEARS FOR THIS WTF GAGA THIS IS NOTHING LIKE ID THOUGHT IT WOULD BE. i like the live version better, her vocals sound wayyyy more powerful in it. this doesn't even sound like her. this might grow on me after time though but for now i'm sticking with the live version. HERE COMES THAT BUILD UP THOUGH HERE WE GO SWIENREINEEIN! it's not as heavy of a beat as the live version though now i'm saaaad. lol gaga you dirty pig. i really was hoping this would be a single after hearing her live performance but now i'm upset because it's not what i thought it was going to be. poopers. it's still good though. SWWWIIIIINEEEEEE SWINEEEEE. wtf was that gags why are you making your voice sound nasally, it sounds like she wasn't feeling good when she recorded this because it doesn't sound like her at all

Donatella- "I am soooo fab." GAGA YOUR MOCKING VOICE IS PERFECT. ok this beat is badass. this is totally like the fame era when she recorded "fashion". THIS IS FUCKING AMAZING THIS IS BLOWING ME OUT OF THE WATER IN THE WEIRDEST WAY I DONT KNOW WHY I LOVE THIS BUT ITS SO WOW CHORUS GAGA IS BACK "what do you want to wear this season" PIZZA. THATS WHAT I WANT TO WEAR. IM HEADBANGING LIKE CRAZY THIS IS GENIUS. i love how she's mocking basically every model ever. this woman deserves all the awards. THAT OUTTRO IM MOVING ALL OVER THE PLACE THIS CHAIR IS GOING TO BREAK I THINK IM HAVING A FIT dirty synth beats i'm dead

Fashion!- this sounds sad why i hope i don't cry OH NEVERMIND it was just the piano at the beginning. stooooop repeating yourself gaga. this is really strange hearing piano compared to the stuff she normally does. this sounds like one of those happy songs when someone like survives a disease or something. it's a good follow up to the idea of donatella though. definitely not my personal favorite though. HER VOICE IN THE BRIDGE I HAVE GOOSEBUMPS AGAIN SHES HOLDING THAT NOTE LONGER THAN I CAN EAT PIZZA WOMAN HOW ARE YOU STILL ALIVE OK THAT BRIDGE IS DEFINITELY MAKING UP FOR THE REST OF THE SONG hi random french dude what's up

Mary Jane Holland- I've listened to snippets of this before so I'm expecting this to be totally amazing. IM FREAKING OUT ALREADY. IM 34 SECONDS IN BUT IM SAYING THIS SHOULD BE SINGLE MATERIAL. "MARY. JANE. HOLLAND." exactly why gaga slays the rest. THIS IS MY JAM NOW DID SHE JUST SAYING "RUSHING" LITERALLY DEAD. so excited for this bridge. THE BRIDGE IS HERE EVERYONE. I FEEL LIKE IM GOING THROUGH SPACE AGAIN. "IM RICH AS PISS" OH M Y GOSH. POWERFUL GUITAR RIFFS. MY BRAIN IS EXPLODING. "INTRODUCING, LADIES AND GENTLEMAN, MARY JANE HOLLAND!" GAGA IS A BAD BITCH. END OF STORY. MY HEART IS RACING THIS IS THE BEST STILL DYING OK

Gypsy- this is going to make me cry. honestly. her voice is so beautiful during the chorus i just can't anymore. WOO HERE WE GO FASTER TEMPO. yeah this is going to make me cry. *yells* NEXT.

Applause- ok i already know this song is amazing because of the million times i've played it before since it is the first single on ARTPOP. *sings to the entire song* *shouts* GIVE ME THAT THING THAT I LOOOOOOVE

Friday, August 9, 2013

Best Day Of My Life.

I'm seeing Big Time Rush in 2 hours and 10 minutes.

I've been waiting for this day for four years now.
I never thought they would come to my town because all that comes here is crappy country and metal.

I'm still in shock, this doesn't feel real at all.
I can't believe it.

Row 8.
I'm going to be 8 rows away from the four men who have helped me through everything the last four years.

This is unbelievable.

Thursday, May 23, 2013

Last Day Irritation.

Today was the last day of my junior year in high school.
Woo, what a fantastic day it was. (sarcasm.)
It was actually going good. I got A's on both of the finals I took today.
The teacher in my last period class let me leave an hour early because I got my test done in 10 minutes, so I thought perfect, I'll go turn my laptop in because there won't be anyone in line.

BOY WAS I WRONG.
I got there and it was like freaking herded cattle. I'm not even joking, there were like 400 idiots squished together, with no room to even breathe.
I get in line.
I wait.
And wait.
And wait.
Meanwhile, I'm getting squished against a table to the point of near suffocation (I guarantee I'll have bruises on my thigh from how hard I was squished against that table), and there's someone's butt touching my butt. I could feel the heat of their butt touching mine. That's not good. I don't enjoy butt heat. Seriously, don't put your butt against mine. What's worse is that it was some irritating sophomore. If it was someone I could tolerate, I wouldn't mind it as bad, I mean I still wouldn't enjoy it of course but I would understand because we are being squished. But this assface kept pushing everyone while having his butt touch mine. GET YOUR BUTT OUT OF MY WAY BEFORE I SHOVE MY LAPTOP UP IT.

After an hour of standing in line (yes, an HOUR just to turn a stupid laptop in), assface jr. (aka principal dude) comes over and starts freaking out, forcing the people that were at the front of the line (meaning me and some other idiots) to go clear to the back of the line. LIKE SERIOUSLY WHAT THE FUCK. At this point I was about ready to walk up and beat someone with a shovel, because I was hungry, my low blood pressure was acting up (I'll faint if it gets real low), and I was getting so claustrophobic that I almost barfed. I whipped out my mom's phone (I don't have my own, don't ask), and was going to call her. I knew that she'd get shit done if she had to come up to the school and flip out on someone. Everyone that was at the front of the line with me was just as mad I was, because we all thought that we were being forced to the back of the line and would have to wait all over again. Luckily that wasn't the case and he was forming some sort of funky line because the line was wrapped CLEAR AROUND THE LIBRARY. So after an hour and 15 minutes I finally turned the piece of crap laptop in. Oh, and they told me to keep the stupid laptop bag. I want to light it on fire or shove 500 sandwiches in it and try to sell them. I'm still mad. That was the maddest I've ever been in my life.

They seriously need to get their shit together.
Freaking dumbasses.

BUT IN OTHER NEWS, IM GOING TO BOTH MONDAY NIGHT RAW AND BIG TIME RUSH THIS SUMMER.
I haven't wrote a post on this in forever so that's my events for the summer.
WOOOOOOOOOOOO.

That's about it for now.
THANK GOODNESS THAT'S OVER.