Things We Have To Face.

No matter who you are, you have to go through hard things in your life. Some people have it worse than others. But the hard part is getting through your problems. Waking up and knowing that everything's fine, and you have survived another day. It's hard to be grateful for anything when you have been pushed so far. You keep getting pushed and pushed further, until you're standing on the edge of the cliff wondering if you should jump. No one's pushing you now, it's your own decision. You want to scream, but if you do people will think there is something mentally wrong with you. The boss always yells and tells you what to do. But why should you follow their orders? What makes them better than you? You are your own person, you should do what you want to do.

What do you say when your grandma comes up to you and says "I know I'm forgetting things, is that ok?" You know deep down that it's not ok, it will never get better. But you manage to choke out a "yes" and try to hold back your tears. The same tears that have been trapped inside for what feels like forever. There's nothing you can do.

What do you do when someone keeps bringing up something that you want to erase from your memory? You're forced to listen to it, the words echoing in your ears, traveling to your brain. You can't quit thinking about it now. One word is all it takes to make you break. You can't bring him back. He's gone. But you can't face that, so you try to forget about it. It won't get better. It will never get better.