Confessions.

My dad is watching some stupid movie on my main computer, so I'm using the sucky school laptops right now. I'm bored, so I thought I would post some truths about me.

1. I should really be doing my homework right now. I have two assignments in history, a dance paper to do, and algebra ll. The History and Algebra are both due Tuesday, which SUCKS, but the dance paper is due Friday.

2. The school computers suck. The bad thing is, a lot of people agree with me on this one. Yes, I'm grateful to even have one, but the quality of these things is like a public toilet. They're crappy. Plus, I have long nails, and typing on a laptop with long nails is not easy.

3. I worry about things that I can't change. Death. My grandma's dementia. The future. This whole year in general. Friends, family. I know I can't change it, and that bothers me a lot.

4. My Desktop Publishing teacher deserves to have his own comedy show. I know this is a SUPER strange thing to write part of a blog post about, but this dude is hilarious. He says "K" so many times that if you were around him for a whole day,it would drive the sanest person into a mental ward. I find it really funny though. I've counted how many times he's said that in one class period before (a class period is an hour and a half) and the results came to over 400 times. That's crazy. He also gets mad at the software, and tells everyone that he's going to "call the creators and chew them out." Haha. To whoever's reading this: If you met this dude, you would love him in a very strange way. Either that, or you would need mental help.

5. I don't think I'm a good friend. I feel like I'm really selfish when it comes to friendship. I don't mean to be. I don't know if it's part of being an only child and hating to share, or if it's just that I'm selfish. It feels like I can't help my friends when they are going through tough times. Deep down, I panic and don't know how to help them. I want to be there for them, but it feels like if I try to do/say anything, it won't work and it will only harm them more. Especially the situation right now with Zebra. (not her real name.) I have no idea what to say or do. I worry about her a lot. I know she's going through a super hard time, but I don't know how to help. All I can do is hope and pray that everything gets better.

6. I don't like the traditional Thanksgiving food. I'm only saying this because I had turkey and mashed potatoes and gravy tonight. I don't like turkey. I think it tastes gross. I honestly don't like ham that much either. Generally, I don't like meat. I don't eat hamburger. A lot of people think that I'm a vegetarian, but I'm not. I just don't think meat tastes good.

7. I HATE having my picture taken. I don't think I'm pretty at all. I never take pictures of myself. My Facebook picture has been the same since the first day I got it. If there's something covering my face like a mask or glasses, then I'm fine. Otherwise, I despise having my picture taken.

8. I feel like I'm too mature to be a "teenager". I've never felt like a teenager. I feel like I've went from being a kid straight to being an adult. I don't go party. I can't even go outside my house by myself. I feel like a prisoner. I've been through things most people never go through until they are way older than just 15, and I think that's part of the reason why I feel more mature.


There's way more, but I'm tired of typing. I'll probably continue this some other time.