My Weekend.

I haven't written a blog in at least a week, so I thought I should write one today. A lot of things have been bothering me anyway, and I need to let some of them out.

My weekend has been really sucky. People were irritating the crap out of me all of last week, and the weekend hasn't gotten any better. I was so mad after school on Friday that when I got in the car, I started crying. I've been doing that a lot, and I think it's because of all the built up anger inside of me. This whole year has been thrown at me, and I'm finally absorbing it all. I haven't really gotten a chance to grieve or anything because things keep piling up and won't stop happening.

I don't even know how to describe yesterday. I should have been happy, but I wasn't. My stupid school decided to mail our midterms finally even though midterms were actually almost two weeks ago. My mom checked the mail and there they were. She saw that I have two F's. She wasn't as mad as my dad would've been, but she was still upset. Usually I get all A's and one or two B's. But now it feels like I can't concentrate in school because everything that's been happening at home and outside of school is hurting me so much. I need time alone. I can't keep going like this.

Today has been bad too because I had to clean. I hate cleaning. I also really hate it when someone is supposed to come to your house, but you have no clue what time. That gets me extremely stressed. I like to be prepared for things.

The Grammy Awards are on tonight. I'm only excited about them because I want Lady Gaga to win. I've been a little monster (Gaga fan) ever since "Just Dance" came out. I'm a bigger fan of Big Time Rush, but I still love her. I feel like we have a lot of similarities, because we've both been through a lot. Her music is really something I can connect to and understand. That's why I listen to "Marry The Night" every day before school. I can relate to that song.